see you on the other side

i consider this my last blogpost as a single lady. in four days (!), g and i will exchange vows and be married. i have nothing but ecstatic joy right now, as i sit outside in our patio, thinking about what will be upon us.

it's been a year since our engagement, a year of dreaming up how we wanted to celebrate our union. it's also been a year of preparing for our future, tackling the hard questions and rejoicing over simple victories. at the six-month mark to our wedding day, everything seemed so far away, intangible. life continued, time passed. it almost felt like we were planning for something that was never going to happen.

but then september rolled around and things had to be done. like writing my vows. i can't even describe what that process was like. writing those words was the most difficult and yet easiest things i've done. difficult because, how in the hell do you put into writing the emotions and love and commitment you have for this other person? but despite that difficulty, everything just flowed once i opened my notebook, put the pen in my hand, and watched g go about his business on a lazy day. i know what i wrote and what i will say is not all-encompassing, but it does capture the essence of my being. our life together and forthcoming actions will speak louder than any words ever could.

so now we are here, days before our ceremony. all plans are finalized, all clothing is fitted. g's mother is no longer a story or a face on skype. she is present, here to witness her only son embrace a new role as husband. my family is growing, and with it, my heart. i am beyond thankful for this time, for this sacred celebration. there's this incredible peace settling within my being, and as much as i want to bottle it up, i won't...

...because i know this is only the beginning.

see you on the other side!