committed

june 5, 2011. san diego, ca. the rock-n-roll marathon and half-marathon. i can officially say that i will be running my first half-marathon!

this is something i've been wanting to experience for quite some time. however, as much as i love to run - to traverse the trails and feel the rhythm of my body - i always found excuses to postpone participating in a marathon. school, no time to train. winter, poor weather to be outside. first-timer, i'll look like a fool. and then the commitment - to a runner's diet, intervals, extending my runs day by day.

there's something about the safety of being committed that seems so dangerous. threatening. i've found myself seeking the trenches in the midst of an inner battle. but it's interesting because the only thing i've been hiding from has been myself. commitment.


i realized that in order for me to live a life fulfilled, i must believe that commitment is a channel for the evolution of my desires. and that by being committed, my focus can be re-directed to what's before me - a meaningful reality - rather than those threatening fears and self-doubts.

so i did it. i left the trenches and registered for the half-marathon. and in so doing, i committed myself to challenging runs, to intentional rest days, and to wearing my bib proudly as i cross that finishing line.